Today, on Senior Appreciation Day at our church (I don't yet qualify by almost a decade), the guest speaker preached a sermon aimed straight at my needs. Isn't God great!
From Joshua 14, he shared how Caleb boldly stated that "I am as strong now as I was when Moses sent me"--forty-five years later, at the age of 85. He demanded "give me this mountain!"
Exactly how I'm feeling. "Give me my dream!"
Over the last few days, I had realized that I didn't fear being rejected (a real possibility). My fear focused on having my dreams crushed. And since I definitely can't realize my dream of writing full time if I don't risk rejection--I went ahead and sent the proposal on.
Today God didn't promise that I would get the contract (He'll let me know through ordinary channels)--but He did assure me that He was pleased with me. That I had acted in obedience and faith.
Pleasing that audience of One is all I needed.