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Thursday, March 27, 2008

SLIVERS OF PRAISE

For the first time since Jolene’s death, I unfolded my prayer list to pray for someone else’s needs instead of focusing exclusively on me and mine.

And the first name I saw was—of course—Jolene.

I wanted to tear the paper into little shreds. My mother and another wise friend both counseled me to instead praise God for Jolene whenever I come to her name on the list.

At work I couldn’t stay awake. I struggled with drooping eyelids for 30 minutes or more; took a trip to the bathroom, splashed cold water on my face, and somehow revived. I made it to the end of my shortened day ready to work longer, to get more done. (I didn’t.) I felt, gulp, almost normal, for the space of about half an hour. A great blessing.

I also took the plunge and called the coroner’s office to learn if they had determined when Jolene had died. They could not give an exact date, but their best guess was either Thursday evening or Friday, two weeks ago. I’m glad it wasn’t Sunday, which would have been her birthday, or Saturday, when I knocked on her door. I hope it wasn’t Friday, which was my son’s birthday.

Praise, and peace, in slivers. God is good.

4 comments:

Lianne said...

Your post reminds me of the song by Casting Crowns, Praise You In the Storm. (Or something like that!) I know you feel like "mush" inside, but truly, your strength is shining through to the rest of us sitting on the sidelines watching your struggle. I'm praying for you daily.

Lynette Sowell said...

Darlene, I'm so glad you're getting some spots of sunshine coming through these dark cloudy days. Many hugs!!

Darlene Franklin said...

Thanks for the prayers. I love that Casting Crowns song. Whatever strength I have comes from Him!

Mary Connealy said...

The song that came to my mind is John Waller, "The Blessing"

Let it be said of us, that our hearts belonged to Jesus,

Let it be said of us, that we spoke the words of life,

Let it be said of us, that our heritage is blessing for life.

You'll remember the blessing of your daughter forever.